Dream and Reality

Assalamualaikum :)

Have you ever felt that you’ve done good enough? I mean the ‘real’ good enough. Good enough according to my personal standard is ‘okay-lah’, and of course you felt incredibly proud of it. Because; It’s like tons better than before. It’s like you’ve put so much effort into it. You have been working your ass off day and night. Although the end thing/result/stuff wasn’t as expected, but it’s still ‘okay-lah’ in your definition. You felt very proud of yourself.

But then, you never realized what people are actually expecting you to accomplish. They pray for you, always there for you, support you in and out, motivate you, and basically they’ve been next to you for forever. Who’re they? They’re the most important person in your entire life.

When you told them the ‘okay-lah’ thing/result/stuff that you’ve get, they was quite taken aback. And their reaction makes you want to sleep and never ever woke up. And your so called ‘okay-lah’ thing/result/stuff shattered them into pieces.

And without you realize, even though at first, you were satisfied with the thing/result/stuff, at the end, even you yourself were devastated. That so-called-proud-feeling eventually shadowed by the devastation. Maybe because it felt like you’ve turned them down. You have crushed their dream (I don’t know whether it is their dream or not but I’ll assume that are).

It… This… Feels really weird right now. Just imagine, you have a pack of super delicious candy. You bring that home. Deep inside, you are freaking contented. Your heart filled with excitement. Your face glows with happiness. You show that super yummy candy to your most important person. And their reaction is supposed to be as delighted as you. But…It’s not. That extra delicious candy is actually just reaching its 

expired date. But you don’t care. Because you still think that expired candy is still yummy and delicious.

Okay. What do I learn from this?

#1 After all, it’s just matter of perception. The way you see something is different with other people.#2 Happiness is subjective. Some people just don’t get it.

Okay wowoowowowooo. Did I went too far? Wohoo. I guessed I’ll stop here. Till then. Have a good time. Goodbye :)